Hi, I'm James, and this is a very brief introduction to my very strange story.

I was widowed when my wife succumbed to the terminal cancer she had lived with for 6 years. During her illness, I suffered a severe mental breakdown related to a trauma from my past, followed by years of chronic anxiety and depression. To say I hit rock bottom would be an understatement. And then my wife died, aged 41. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me, but has also turned out to be the most incredible blessing, and the reason you are now reading this website.

As many of us do when we are at our lowest point, I asked; "what is it all about, and why"? Incredibly, I received the answer.

Explaining this is difficult without sounding crazy. I wasn't intoxicated, medicated, dehydrated, or sleep deprived. I was simply sat down calmy contemplating the question. And when the answer came, it wasn't a voice, apparition, or hallucination. It was an instantaneous download of knowledge I had always known but forgotten. A remembering. It came from within me, my own mind, yet somewhere beyond. Transcendent.

At the same time I sensed a Blue Rose Mandala. I didn't physically see it, not even in my minds eye, but the image I "felt" was more real than real. It was a presence. In that moment, I experienced for the first time in my life, both my own soul, and the Divine, joined as one. I remembered who I was, who we all are, and why we are here. It was a communion with God! Although, that word has so many different connotations for different people, I prefer to use the term Numinous.

In the years since that first life changing event, I've had repeated and frequent encounters with the Blue Rose Numinous, and I've been given answers to our most profound questions, on life and death, good and evil, suffering, love, the very nature of God and our purpose in the universe. I've shared my knowledge with others, especially those grieving through loss, and witnessed them end their suffering and find peace. Those transformations have inspired me to want to help more people through this website and my YouTube channel.

The message is very simple: we are the creators of our own reality. Life doesn't happen to us, it happens for us, and it's all good. Ultimately, everything is Love. No matter what hardship you are currently experiencing, you can end the suffering in a heartbeat. You don't need to learn any new skill, you merely need to remember what your soul has always known. Your own eternal Divinity. When you reconnect with the Numinous, your life will transform to one of endless abundance.

I would love to help you find that reconnection for yourself.

Yours sincerely,

James